Coming to an End

I know it's extremely stereotypical to write about the end of high school and the beginning of college but I'm going to do it anyway. Did you know we're graduating in thirty two days? THIRTY TWO. THIRTY TWO?! Where's the time gone? It feels like just yesterday that we were sitting in Dr. Immel's class, being assigned our senior projects. Just yesterday we were given the "This I Believe" project in Mr. Smith's class. Now here we are sitting in a classroom, screwing around without a care in the world. By now everyone's gotten their acceptance letters and turned in their prototypes for the senior project. So what's next? What comes after we're handed our diplomas and step off that stage?

For some of us, things won't be much different. Some of us will still live at home and go to the junior college for a little while. Plus there's always that security blanket back at Sonoma State where our friends and teachers dwell. Unfortunately, the rest of us will be going away. Maybe only an hour or two, but it still means leaving our friends and family and starting somewhere new, all alone. We're going to have to learn how to get to class on time without Mom banging on our door. We're going to have to budget our food instead of scrounging around in the fridge at one in the morning. We have to learn how to be adults. I guess that's what scares me most about going away. I've never actually had to be self sustaining for more than a few days. I've always had my mom or dad there to pay for my lunch or serve me dinner. I have no idea how to plan dinners for a week. I have absolutely no idea how to set up a budget so I can pay all my bills on time and still have enough money for savings. I know my parents will be there to help me get set up. I also know that the first couple weeks will be scary as hell but after that I'm going to have the time of my life.


Stepping back and looking at things in a different perspective, these next six months are going to be a big deal. Prom is in two weeks, graduation in thirty two school days, possibly moving to Walnut Creek for a few days during the week over summer. My main concern right now is having fun and enjoying the end of this part of my life. I'm so scared of losing the friends I've grown to love over the past four years. I know that we'll all keep in contact but I won't be able to go to class everyday and see my friends making inappropriate gestures with their hands or yelling about Burning Man to our economics teacher. I guess it's time to grow up into the mature adult I know I have potential to be. For now though... let's enjoy some craziness.